Merry Christmas;

I know it's late, but I would just like to wish you all a Merry Christmas.
I hope Santa gave you what you wished for, and my best wishes for a happy New Year.

Awake my Soul;

You ever get that feeling that you're life is stuck on repeat? That nothing ever really changes, no matter how much you will it to? Like you'd be willing for something even slightly unfortunate to happen, just to shake things up a bit?

Yeah, that's me.

Back to December;

Where did the year go? It feels like I graduated just last month, and now we're nearing the end of the year. But I admit, I've missed the overplayed Christmas music and the overexcited neighbors with thousands of light-up inflatables in their yard. I only wish that this feeling would last long after the holiday has passed. The lightness that lingers throughout the month is so tangible, you can practically taste it.

Said lightness has infected me already. I've already begun my holiday shopping and started looking over new cookie recipes. Call me old-fashioned, but that's what the how the holidays have always been for me.
I'm really just marveled by how quickly this year has passed. I feel like so much has happened, too much to seem real even. Friendships were created and lost, but that's life, and we all move on.

But maybe next year there can be another go around with those that were lost.



Because I have to include this song. It just makes sense.

What a night;

This is what I feel like right now. Plus, I just really love Katy Perry.

Here It Goes Again;

Yes, it is that time of year yet again. When the leaves start to change from their brilliant emerald green to vibrant reds, oranges, and yellows. It's a calming and a peaceful time of year - warm days, cool nights, holding onto the last bit of summer. It's drawing to a close quickly this year, but I'm pretty much counting the days until Christmas anyway ;)

But in my life recently, I have a new job working at a daycare in town. It's superduper stressful at times, but I really do love playing with them and just having a good time. I actually cashed my first paycheck the other day and it really made it seem worth it. And THANK GOD for that.

In other unimportant news, guard auditions were last Sunday, and I should be getting an email very soon as to whether or not I made the team. Something tells me I didn't, but maybe that's just me being self-conscious about my abilities. I hope so, because I can't not do guard this year. This may be the last chance I have, so I want to make this one really count.

Anywho, the song of the day is 'Ohio' by Over the Rhine. It makes me smile in a sick and twisted kind of way.

Summer Lovin.

And so a new chapter of my life begins.

I'm officially a member of Springboro's prestigious alumni. It's odd, but I actually don't miss high school as much as I thought I would. Yeah, the first couple of school days this year were strange - seeing my sister go off to school without me, but it's all good now. I really don't miss all the drama and tests and teachers anymore.

And so now what do I do? Well, at the moment, I'm looking for a new job. I need a car and a mode of transportation for college in the spring. It's not cool to have your parents drive you to your first day of college. Yeah, just no. But at the moment, life is good. I'm bored sometimes just sitting around at home while all my friends are at school, but it's not so bad. Pretty relaxing at times.

Another milestone is just around the corner: turning 18. It's definitely scary. There's all these legal things I have to know about now and, ugh, it's just all a jumbled mess. But I'll be okay. I'm excited in some ways. For example, I can buy a lottery ticket, smoke (not that I EVER will; gross), and pretty much do anything that I want - that's legal, at least ;) So for now, I'm happy. We'll see how long that lasts.


Much love,
Katie-B

A Journey

Let's take a journey,
Just you and me.
We can swim with mermaids,
Under the Sea.

Everything will feel like A Whole New World,
As we soar across the skies.
We'll see The Colors of the Wind,
As we race on by.

Peter Pan and Tinkerbell will lead us,
To the Second Star to the Right.
But one look at a pirate ship
Might give us a fright.

It's Just Around the Riverbend,
Everything we'll see.
I Wonder what we will find,
If the Bella Notte lets it be.

As we Go the Distance,
You'll become so precocious.
By the time we're through,
You'll be saying Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious.

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crazy brand-type poem for creative writing.
Enjoy!

Love,
KatieB<3

Past, Present, and Future

It's gone.
What?
You heard me. It's gone.
But-but, why?
It no longer holds any use to us.
Of course it does! Why do you say that?
Don't you see?
Obviously not.
Ugh, are we still children in your eyes?
No, but-
Exactly. So why should we hold onto the past?
Those were our memories!
And why were they so important to you?
They were part of who we are.
You need a tangible object to relay the past?
No, but-
So why are you so upset with me?
I'm not.
Your tone is bitter. You're angry with me.
I'm not.
I was wrong.
No... You were right.
I way?
Of course. Memories are the past.
Today is the present.
And we are the future.

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Another Creative Writing assignment.
Love,
KatieB <3

How to Fall in Love

Again, we ask ourselves this question.
Blah, blah, blah
Comrades become lovers,
Days come and go, but
Eternal love is exactly that:
Forever;
Going on and on and on.
How we fall in love is different for everyone.
It can be hard, but it can be
Just as easy.
Kindergarten crushes are not uncommon, but is that
Love?
Many think love will happen on its own; some think it will
Never come for them.
Of course, that's your opinion.
People always say that the act of love is easy to do.
Question is, why?
Reason tells us that the innerworkings of the human mind
Simply make it happen.
There's no right or wrong to how it happens.
Until it does, you don't know. Make a
Vow to yourself, because
When it comes to love,
Expect the unexpected; you never know what it will bring
You; but you must reach for it or you will get
Zilch, and never fall in love

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A 'How To' ABC poem I wrote for Creative Writing. Enjoy!
Love,
KatieB <3

Heaven is Purple, Hell is Blue

I was standing at the edge of the world,
Where Heaven and Hell meet.
I looked out to the horizon and stepped back,
Feeling small and meek.

I squinted my eyes and took a closer look.
The sky was divided in two.
Two distinct colors shown before me;
Heaven was purple, Hell was blue.

Searching for angels and demons,
I saw happiness and sorrow.
I was curious how two worlds could be so different.
Never ending, no hope for tomorrow.

I looked around myself to see I was still on Earth,
And realized it was my home and true.
I walked away from the edge of the world
Where Heaven was purple and Hell was blue.

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Something I wrote in creative writing class :)
Love,
Kaitlyn Elizabeth

Haha;

Thank you Verizon Wireless for making me smile today. I needed that :)

You.

It was morning.

I yawned and walked to my balcony window. I brushed away the cold condensation that had formed over the course of the night. Through the now clear window, I saw that a light dusting of snow had covered the earth below. I smiled.

I looked over my shoulder and saw the letter you left me. I walked over to the desk where it lay and read it. I tear glided down my cheek as the corner of my mouth turned up into that crooked little smile you love so much. I dried my tears with the sleeve of your shirt. I was still wearing it. I kept the sleeve close to my face. It smelled like you.

It was morning.

I Look Up at the Sky and Wonder...

So my agenda for this week is a little exciting, a little scary, and very, very bittersweet.

We started this week off with no school due to President's Day and then I just got a text that said we have no school tomorrow. It's snowing like crazy over here, so I'm just hoping that it's our last snow day. This will be our fifth and that's all we're aloud a year :(

But anyway, Tuesday I'll most likely spending the day finishing up my homework and reading my book for my English reading project. We got to pick our book, but it had to be a Man Booker Award winner. It's called Cloud Atlas by David Mitchell. I bought it yesterday, but I haven't touched it yet. It's crazy long. -Sigh; it's gonna take awhile...

Wednesday will be the bittersweet part of my week: cap and gown delivery. It's exciting in a way. I'm planning on taking it home and trying it on, making sure it fits and everything. I'll probably curl my hair and see if that's how I'll wear it for the big day. It's so sad though. Us seniors only have roughly 70 days of high school. Hmm, I'm gonna miss it.

Thursday is the somewhat scary portion: the blood drive. I did it last year and fainted. Yea, I didn't really eat anything that morning and that contributed pretty well to my wooziness. No matter. I've scheduled my time to be after my breakfast and lunch. It made me feel really good about myself knowing that I could've saved a life. My blood type is O+, which is the universal donor, so it's even more of a plus! Unfortunately, I have practice after school, so my coach won't be too happy if I faint ;) haha, I'll try not too though.

Friday is when I can relax. Hopefully I won't have procrastinated and have a good portion of my book read. I have practice too, which I'm not really looking forward too. This year is definitely not what I was hoping for, but I've decided that I need to look at it positively. Now, I see it as a prep year for my independed colorguard career. Onyx World 2011 here i come :)

A New Lease on Life

So I'm finally in my senior year of high school. Big changes and important decisions are being thrown my way every day. Some days I want to scream and hide, some days I want to cry, and some days I just laugh my ass off.

But right now, I don't know. I'm so confused about everything right now. My family supports me in everything I do, but sometimes I feel like they're out of the loop. My friends always have my back, but sometimes they don't know the full truth.

I'm being pulled back and forth in every direction imaginable. I feel like I'm starting to wander down the wrong path and I'm afraid that I'll get lost and won't be able to find my way back. Back to where everything made sense.

Where have those days gone? The simple ones, where the hardest choice you had to make was whether you wanted butter or jelly on your morning toast?. I miss those days. I find myself constantly wishing to go back to the age of 4 and forget all of this pressure that keeps surrounding me, like walls that keep closing in. I feel like these walls keep growing taller and closer together, further trapping me in until there isn't even a hope of escpaping.

Maybe I'm being dramatic. Maybe I'm just complaining. No.

I'm growing up, as strange as it feels.

Right now, this realization is scary. Right now, I'm afraid for the day when I won't be able to just run down the hall when I need my mommy or hold my teddy bear when the bad dreams won't leave my head. I like being considered a child. It makes me feel freer that it would being an adult, despite the fact that adults legally have more freedoms than children.

Regardless of age and its formalities in the legal system, I have discovered a new lease on life. I realize that the youthful innocense of my childhood is slowly trickling away from me and I have very little time left with it. I realized that I need to hold my teddy bear while I can and cry for my mom now while I still live under the same roof. I guess I've just decided that I should make the most of, not just the rest of my childhood, but my life as a whole. I know that phrase has become so generic over the years, but I think now that it finally applies to me.

This is my year. This year, I will become a high school graduate, finally enter college, become an adult, and finally realize what will become of my life. I'm ready for every change and every decision, good or bad. Bring it on.